Dream with McDreamy

My life choices are not always directed to the right path. There are a lot of times that I regret what comes out of my lips. I have been judged, misunderstood, and literally criticized to the ground.

I don't blame anyone. I am now an adult, everything I do reflect the real person in me.

But how will you explain the feeling of affection to one person who is not really for you? Someone who cannot spend Christmas Day with you; who can only be there for breakfast, but never for all the other meals of the day?

He who makes every living hell a blissful heaven; he who surprises you with coffee every morning; he who have been present in your life in every heartache, heartbreak, and painful effects of you're so-called serious relationships; how can it be wrong when you have had each other for half a decade, but decided to live the ideal lives.

It is most painful to hear that when we found each other, it was too late for him to be mine; and too early for me to realize that I can be his. We let fate decide when we'll see one another again. We stopped making plans when we remembered our promises to the people we would hurt if we continue this madness.

This madness that most people find hard to accept; this madness that nobody understands; this madness that feels so right.

This marks our 6th year of going in and out of each others' life. The Big Macs, the second home, the mushy but funny pick-up lines, the JL-Bea movies we truly enjoy, and how became a you and me against the world couple.